Post by zexion on Jan 20, 2010 20:26:58 GMT -5
Just trying to find my way back home~
10:10:01 PM <Rinoa11> Running away from the castle wasn't the smartest thing to do but it was the only thing she felt she had the power to do. The thoughts that Roxas had evoked, and maybe he didn't really mean to, they really hurt and brought up the discomfort she felt at being around some of the members of the organization. Sure she did know that they were all friends now, everyone was working together to help but... The constant bullying, the hurtful abuse. He was right, that couldn't be ignored. She wasn't angry at any of them, just saddened that she still felt like their ragdoll. She felt hopeless and tearful. As the blond girl sat alone with her sketchbook in Hallow bastion, she began to wonder, "Do they really need me as much as I need them?"
10:20:34 PM <Cloneclone> "Ah there you are." Came Zexion's voice, the next thing following was chilled licks to Namine's cheek as an all too familiar -for the girl at least- canine hybrid crawled out of the floor next to her. Knowing Namine had taken a liking for the experiment, Zexion had decided to bring it along. "You made this game of hide and seek rather dull don't you know." The schemer teased as he sauntered on up to take a seat next to the witch. "I take it the conversation with Roxas wasn't as charming as you'd hope, hm?"
10:27:37 PM <Rinoa11> "I thought we were just going to catch up over ice cream... like the old times" she said as she gently wrapped her arms around the canine heartless, looking at the floor, her eyes not meeting Zexion's for one instance. "I'm not going back Zexion, not yet at least." It had been almost a week since she had left and she had managed fine without any of them. It was childish of her but she hoped they had worried, she hoped they did miss her, it would certainly change from the lack of visits or attempts to visit her as she sat in her room. Having constant contact with people was certainly refreshing from the lonely solitude she endured because of her thoughts.
10:29:42 PM <Cloneclone> I forgot what she named him so forgive me :C))
10:31:57 PM <Rinoa11> I forgot too]
10:36:49 PM <Cloneclone> "Who ever said I was to bring you back?" Zexion arched a brow, settling his hands in his lap. He didn't say anything for a while, squinting as he looked tot he sky. "Hmmhm hmmm~ Penny for you thoughts though? What is your reason for hiding away." Zexion wasn't sure if she was hiding exactly, seeing as she was easy to find.... but maybe that was just him and his nose. World hopping found itself to be a doozy though.
10:45:56 PM <Rinoa11> "I can erase the memories of others but not my own" The petite blond paused for a while, nuzzling her head into the dog's neck, trying to find some comfort and bravery that she was lacking. "I wanted to forget how painfully humiliating it was, the lonliness, the guilt, everything negative. However, it's never going to go away, at the back of my head I know I'm going to be terrified of every single one of you, I'm going to feel resentment and constant guilt towards Roxas for getting freedom and for trapping him. You know better than I do what went on, you were there. It's never going to go away..." Silence fell upon the pair for a while until the girl spoke again, her words quiet and quivvering. "He's my friend Zexion, the only true friend I ever had... and he's right, how can I let you coddle me like a little sister after the horrors you put me through? I'm not going back... not now"
10:55:35 PM <Cloneclone> Zexion placed his fingers together, arching a brow. "You forget, the Underground's plans and Marluxia's plans were different. Yes, we wanted similar things...to an extent, but we sought them in different ways. I don't believe I ever came across you in Castle Oblivion more than once or twice." But if she wanted to be afraid of everyone, what was he to say? She had reason and... Zexion didn't have the heart to care honestly. The hybrid woofled lightly before licking at Namine's face, tail wagging. "Hang on to this fear and guilt as long as you want, but it will never do you any good."
11:06:09 PM <Rinoa11> It was the bitterness that was going to be her ruin, Namine a girl who had never spared a thought to resent or negativity for her situation, her nightmares, her discomfort had now let in a slight sliver of bitterness and it was ruining everything that she was. "What do I do? What should I do?" she asked, pleaded almost, as she clung to the dog, hoping someone would give her a sign, answers that she was lacking or comfort that she needed to get back up on her feet.
11:10:57 PM <Cloneclone> "I could say do what I did with Axel, but I hardly doubt that'll be the same with your case." He scratched beneath the hybrids ribs, causing it's leg to thump. "I am sure with a bit of time, it will come and go."
11:11:02 PM <Cloneclone> oifhrui short wryyyy))
11:18:43 PM <Rinoa11> She looked at the ground before covering her face with her hands. "I doesn't feel like it'll go..."
11:23:55 PM <Cloneclone> Zexion snorted, "Trust me, I felt damn near adamant on hating Axel as far s that emotion goes without a heart." He waved his hand, "It's gone now, I forgive him for betraying the organization, killing Vexen, likely bringing the destruction of most of the members and killing me in the process."... Of course this was all said with a bitter sarcasm. Okay so he 'forgave' but this didn't mean he was any less pissed. He just... Didn't put the effort into caring enough about it to take up space in his head. The schemer turned the dog's head for it to face Namine, "I don't want you to be upset~ He says." Childish? Painfully so, but Zexion deserved points for trying.
11:28:12 PM <Rinoa11> She raised her brows and shook her head with a sigh. "Thanks Zexion... but it's not working" She leaned forward and petted the dog and then Zexion on the heads, right between the ears and right behind in Zexion's case. "I'm going to stay away for a while.... until I find answers or some sort of peace. Besides, I need to get out more.... look at how pasty I am."
11:28:49 PM ** Ecomics21 has left [timed out]
11:31:32 PM <Cloneclone> Tail wagging once again, the jagged zipper one could call a mouth on the canine's face turned up in a grin. "Here's to hoping hm? Would you like me to keep your whereabouts a secret?" The Schemer asked, smirking at the pet.
11:34:58 PM <Rinoa11> Namine shrugged. "I move every so often, if they find me they find me, but I'm not going back" she said simply, getting up and brushing off her dress. Let them look for her, let them worry their socks off, who was she to care anymore. With that she petted the dog once more before gathering her sketchbook to wonder through a portal to anywhere she pleased.
11:38:18 PM <Cloneclone> Zexion shrugged before nudging the dog after the portal. Might as well kill two birds with one stone. The hybrid was happy to be around Namina and out of the lab and it'd give the girl someone to be with aaand if she didn't want him around? She knew how to get rid of the heartless. Standing up and patting off his robe, the fawn waved Namine off. "Goodbye for now."
11:47:50 PM <Rinoa11> The girl looked down at the dog and petted between his ears as she silently waved her goodbye to Zexion. It was nice to have a companion but she wasn't terribly sure of other things. As she wandered out the other end of the portal she looked around at the scenery of wonderland, she figured the madness herewould be interesting to draw
10:10:01 PM <Rinoa11> Running away from the castle wasn't the smartest thing to do but it was the only thing she felt she had the power to do. The thoughts that Roxas had evoked, and maybe he didn't really mean to, they really hurt and brought up the discomfort she felt at being around some of the members of the organization. Sure she did know that they were all friends now, everyone was working together to help but... The constant bullying, the hurtful abuse. He was right, that couldn't be ignored. She wasn't angry at any of them, just saddened that she still felt like their ragdoll. She felt hopeless and tearful. As the blond girl sat alone with her sketchbook in Hallow bastion, she began to wonder, "Do they really need me as much as I need them?"
10:20:34 PM <Cloneclone> "Ah there you are." Came Zexion's voice, the next thing following was chilled licks to Namine's cheek as an all too familiar -for the girl at least- canine hybrid crawled out of the floor next to her. Knowing Namine had taken a liking for the experiment, Zexion had decided to bring it along. "You made this game of hide and seek rather dull don't you know." The schemer teased as he sauntered on up to take a seat next to the witch. "I take it the conversation with Roxas wasn't as charming as you'd hope, hm?"
10:27:37 PM <Rinoa11> "I thought we were just going to catch up over ice cream... like the old times" she said as she gently wrapped her arms around the canine heartless, looking at the floor, her eyes not meeting Zexion's for one instance. "I'm not going back Zexion, not yet at least." It had been almost a week since she had left and she had managed fine without any of them. It was childish of her but she hoped they had worried, she hoped they did miss her, it would certainly change from the lack of visits or attempts to visit her as she sat in her room. Having constant contact with people was certainly refreshing from the lonely solitude she endured because of her thoughts.
10:29:42 PM <Cloneclone> I forgot what she named him so forgive me :C))
10:31:57 PM <Rinoa11> I forgot too]
10:36:49 PM <Cloneclone> "Who ever said I was to bring you back?" Zexion arched a brow, settling his hands in his lap. He didn't say anything for a while, squinting as he looked tot he sky. "Hmmhm hmmm~ Penny for you thoughts though? What is your reason for hiding away." Zexion wasn't sure if she was hiding exactly, seeing as she was easy to find.... but maybe that was just him and his nose. World hopping found itself to be a doozy though.
10:45:56 PM <Rinoa11> "I can erase the memories of others but not my own" The petite blond paused for a while, nuzzling her head into the dog's neck, trying to find some comfort and bravery that she was lacking. "I wanted to forget how painfully humiliating it was, the lonliness, the guilt, everything negative. However, it's never going to go away, at the back of my head I know I'm going to be terrified of every single one of you, I'm going to feel resentment and constant guilt towards Roxas for getting freedom and for trapping him. You know better than I do what went on, you were there. It's never going to go away..." Silence fell upon the pair for a while until the girl spoke again, her words quiet and quivvering. "He's my friend Zexion, the only true friend I ever had... and he's right, how can I let you coddle me like a little sister after the horrors you put me through? I'm not going back... not now"
10:55:35 PM <Cloneclone> Zexion placed his fingers together, arching a brow. "You forget, the Underground's plans and Marluxia's plans were different. Yes, we wanted similar things...to an extent, but we sought them in different ways. I don't believe I ever came across you in Castle Oblivion more than once or twice." But if she wanted to be afraid of everyone, what was he to say? She had reason and... Zexion didn't have the heart to care honestly. The hybrid woofled lightly before licking at Namine's face, tail wagging. "Hang on to this fear and guilt as long as you want, but it will never do you any good."
11:06:09 PM <Rinoa11> It was the bitterness that was going to be her ruin, Namine a girl who had never spared a thought to resent or negativity for her situation, her nightmares, her discomfort had now let in a slight sliver of bitterness and it was ruining everything that she was. "What do I do? What should I do?" she asked, pleaded almost, as she clung to the dog, hoping someone would give her a sign, answers that she was lacking or comfort that she needed to get back up on her feet.
11:10:57 PM <Cloneclone> "I could say do what I did with Axel, but I hardly doubt that'll be the same with your case." He scratched beneath the hybrids ribs, causing it's leg to thump. "I am sure with a bit of time, it will come and go."
11:11:02 PM <Cloneclone> oifhrui short wryyyy))
11:18:43 PM <Rinoa11> She looked at the ground before covering her face with her hands. "I doesn't feel like it'll go..."
11:23:55 PM <Cloneclone> Zexion snorted, "Trust me, I felt damn near adamant on hating Axel as far s that emotion goes without a heart." He waved his hand, "It's gone now, I forgive him for betraying the organization, killing Vexen, likely bringing the destruction of most of the members and killing me in the process."... Of course this was all said with a bitter sarcasm. Okay so he 'forgave' but this didn't mean he was any less pissed. He just... Didn't put the effort into caring enough about it to take up space in his head. The schemer turned the dog's head for it to face Namine, "I don't want you to be upset~ He says." Childish? Painfully so, but Zexion deserved points for trying.
11:28:12 PM <Rinoa11> She raised her brows and shook her head with a sigh. "Thanks Zexion... but it's not working" She leaned forward and petted the dog and then Zexion on the heads, right between the ears and right behind in Zexion's case. "I'm going to stay away for a while.... until I find answers or some sort of peace. Besides, I need to get out more.... look at how pasty I am."
11:28:49 PM ** Ecomics21 has left [timed out]
11:31:32 PM <Cloneclone> Tail wagging once again, the jagged zipper one could call a mouth on the canine's face turned up in a grin. "Here's to hoping hm? Would you like me to keep your whereabouts a secret?" The Schemer asked, smirking at the pet.
11:34:58 PM <Rinoa11> Namine shrugged. "I move every so often, if they find me they find me, but I'm not going back" she said simply, getting up and brushing off her dress. Let them look for her, let them worry their socks off, who was she to care anymore. With that she petted the dog once more before gathering her sketchbook to wonder through a portal to anywhere she pleased.
11:38:18 PM <Cloneclone> Zexion shrugged before nudging the dog after the portal. Might as well kill two birds with one stone. The hybrid was happy to be around Namina and out of the lab and it'd give the girl someone to be with aaand if she didn't want him around? She knew how to get rid of the heartless. Standing up and patting off his robe, the fawn waved Namine off. "Goodbye for now."
11:47:50 PM <Rinoa11> The girl looked down at the dog and petted between his ears as she silently waved her goodbye to Zexion. It was nice to have a companion but she wasn't terribly sure of other things. As she wandered out the other end of the portal she looked around at the scenery of wonderland, she figured the madness herewould be interesting to draw